Cool Girl.

So, I'm pretty new to this whole blogging world and reaching out to people in cyberspace. Having said that, I've come across an awesome gal named Adrienne, who without even knowing me is so nice. She has agreed to help me with my photography, answers all my silly emails and blog comments, and even offered to send me a Maya Road chipboard album because they are hard to find in my neck of the woods. I believe you find people in the world for a reason, and I want to thank Adrienne for being such a kind and generous person to me...a person she's never met. Everyone check out her blog...she has great posts and is a massive source for creativity and inspiration. Thanks Adrienne!

WTF?

Went to CK Scrapbook convention in Mesa on Friday. What a massive turn off. Made rethink this scrapbook hobby for the sheer reason that the majority of women I encountered were completley rude. People were pushy...I mean literally shoving you out of the way just for some paper. By the end of the day, I seriously wanted to punch someone. I won't ever go to another one again. Not to mention the classes (with the exception of one sponsored by Devine Memories...this was great) were just crap. I mean we're packed in like sardines with no room to work...ugghh...I think I would've rather been working.

Needless to say, I got over my whole "gotta take classes or I'll never be any good at scrapbooking" thing real quick. I mean when you get to the bare bones it's just paper, right?

Weird...

Yesterday my company that I work for laid of tons of people. I was one of lucky ones that survived. It just feels weird now...they just came in so militant like and had the unlucky ones shut down their computers, told them briefly what was going on, had them grab very few personal items, ushered them into a room to get their severance packages, and escorted out by security.

It makes me feel very unstable...a feeling I don't like, and don't know how to cope with. I feel like I'm walking on eggshells constantly, and if I don't watch my step, I'll be next...although they've assured us they only were doing one round of axing people.

My husband says I have too big of a heart and that although it is normal to feel sympathy for the ones that lost their jobs, that I have to press on continue to do what I do to insure that I'm not "The List". I've been the unlucky one once before and it can really knock you for a loop, especially when you weren't even expecting it.

I'm just feeling weirded out by it all, and I'm not even sure why...

Yeah, I did it...

Last weekend I did do the 15.4 mile hike for Breast Cancer Research. It was so awesomely hard, but made me realize that whatever I wrap my head around and commit to...it's done. I've always been like this, and then my Army training totally developed that trait, and 8 years after discharge, this hike brought it all back. There was no stopping me until about mile 11...there was no way I was giving it, but my legs started cramping and I was really tired, but I just kept movin' on. I thought about all the women who are so weak from chemo, or who are trying to come to grips without any breasts, or for all those women who know they've lost the battle and it's just a matter of time. Who knows, I may be in their shoes someday, but while I'm willing and able to make a difference, I will. My goal is to do the Susan G Komen 3 day hike...20 miles a day. Determination is so empowering.

Mile 1...feeling kinda cocky...goin good...

Mile 13...tired, but almost done...towards the end, my friend and I were so excited to see each mile marker!